I've been struggling with my weight for about five years now.  At 5ft 1 I think I weigh close to 160 lbs thereabout.  I'm so scared of knowing my actual weight that I avoid the scale at all cost I think I can see cobwebs all over it.

So what went wrong?   Believe it or not I used to be an exercise freak. Yup! every morning I used to do an hour of Denise Austin  which usually aired on Lifetime.  God I miss that show!  Denise Austin in my opinion is the best fitness trainer there ever was.  She was 47 going on  50 at the time and weighed just 120 lbs. I used to marvel at her and promise myself that that would be me.  But years of bad dieting took its toll and a once curvy and fit young woman turned into this overweight person which I loathe.

My self esteem has gone down several notches and I don't think I look good anymore  My boyfriend comforts me by telling me I still look good but I don't believe him.  I mean I'm not so bad but I could be better.  I just want to go back to that time and place before the fast foods and junk food where I was lean and toned and looked like Beyonce.

Wish me Good Luck!!
Mandy